Painful....

Is being hardly to breath now a days, The things i once have lost....The feeling that can't have it back anymore really troubling me...
It makes my heart became really heavy every time i came to think of it ....
How it have no possibilities to return..  to have it back..
I really hate this feeling..it's a burden in my heart... I don't like it.
But i can't forget it either... Tears keeps stirring in me..
It wont flow out... wanted to cry but have no tears is really painful... I want to let it out...
I keep on struggling in me... I want it back.. I know it is impossible.. But why am i being this stubborn... I hate it make me feel lonely... I know i am not.. but.....
I wanna disappear if there is this possibilities.. I just wanna disappear from this world..even just a moment... I want to disappear... or make my mind all blank.. erase all my memories.. If there is the possibilities... I want everything Disappear..!
 

This Breathing is so Suffocating, I wanna run away from it..I wanna escape..
God, please let me vanish from this world..even just a moment...

But I know i have cross the line i should never cross... I've lost my self control...
But....
Why is it me always have this suffocating feelings?
Why am I the one who keep losing the things i appreciate so much
Why am i still living... aren't i suppose to be the one to VANISH?
Why not take me instead?
Why must i bear all this feeling?
When only can i let them all go?
When only this painful tears will stop?
When?

Can you all think my feeling?

I HATE alone !!!

You all always left me alone !!!!

You all always complaint me i quite...

But you all think befour why am i  quite ???

You all never think !!!!

  I HATE U ALL !!!!!

  I HATE U ALL !!!!!

  I HATE U ALL !!!!!

  I HATE U ALL !!!!!

 

 

 

 













* I love write blog cuz just here can write down all my feeling....