Just listen to what I'm saying...

Why is this happening to me?!
Why me?
Why can it be someone else?
Why do i feel guilty at something that I shouldn't be feeling guilty?
Why can I be more like the rest of my friends?
Why if don't exist in this world?
Am I not that lucky enough to be a lot more like my friends?
Am I not good enough to be happy...
Am I ever going to stop hurting people...
Can this ever stop from happening...
Can I NOT cry...
Can this... just stop. Just for a while...
Let me breath...
Let me catch my breath...
See where exactly I can stand, in people's life

I am so lost in the world where people talking, demanding, requesting a lot of stuff...
or was me? asking... demanding, requesting, and talking at the same time... about a lot of things.

pleasee pleasee pleaseeee


I just want to be at a place where I want to be in right now...
Not this... not right now... Not this place.
I don't know what I did wrong that I deserve this amount of pressure around me
Framing me...
pulling me in all different direction...
calling my name....
is this a punishment for loving a lot of people,
me wanting to be friends with everyone
to want a lot of things in life
to be happy?
to be too sad?
to feel want?
need?
seriously what do  you want me to do?
I wish people could hear what I am trying to tell them...
I am not asking for anything...
I just want it to be like... nothing is wrong. Just the little things that can happen, not like now.
nothing less nothing more...
without jealousy, without anger, curiosity, weak, being pressure, regrets, love, hate, hate....


I wish I could be strong enough to deal with everything...