I'm sorry

I'm sorry to lead u disappointed to me,
But I have my reason just don't know how to tell u,
Maybe u think tat I selfish , never heard u wat u said, never put u in the 1st ,
Maybe u think tat even how my mum treat me unfair I also is help my mum,
But I really have my reason, and I edy try my best to ask my mum wat u ask me to do,
Maybe u grow at different family with me , u won't understand my situation,
I have been regret n lost one ppl important in my life,
So I don't want lost it again,
You n my mum also important to me, both of u I also don't want to lost it,
But I can swear it I Love You !!!

I know u still angry me, but I really hope u wont make the decision I don't want to hear it.
I really scare to lose you, I know I already can't without you.
You are the only one make me smile.
 I want to message you but I scare u won't reply my massage,
I want to call you but I scare u won't pick up my call,
I really scare to lost you!!!!





Thinking 0f y0u

Wh3n the stArs c0me out twinkling, I'll b3 thinking 0f y0u,

When the sun sweeps the sky clean, Yes I'll be thinking 0f y0u,

When the wind caresses my skin, y0u will b3 the 0ne 0n my mind,

When the rain drop touches face, Yes y0u will be the one on mind,

Y0u came in my life and showed me a new m3...

Y0u made me see the things that I c0uld never see...

Y0u are constantly present in my every thought.





I know I am falling for you
I know I'm happy with you
I know I'm scare when I'm with you
I know I'm scare to lose you

I want you to stay

I want to see you in my future

I want to be with you in my future

It scares me because I don't know what I want
I'm scares I want so much 
That I can't have what I want
I know I shouldn't be expecting so much from you
Because people think I'm might hurt myself
But I choose to be stubborn 
It's too late to back down 
I am falling for you
I want you 

and only you

The Seventh Day

This few day I was nothing to do at hostel , watching "The Seventh Day" it's sad and touching !!  L0ve this series ... ^^

 Different people have different attitudes to love – even those born on the same day in the same year do not necessarily share the same views.Yau Chi-Wing and Hui Wai-Yan or Don Dum were both born on the seventh day of August, but one takes relationships seriously while the other is very materialistic and sees love as a tool to get higher up the social ladder.
The tale begins on the seventh of August, when Wing and Don first encounter their own dream girl on the same island. Wing works as a lifeguard on the outlying island. He gets to know pet shop assistant Ling Ka-Yan by chance and is soon mesmerized by her endearing personality. Don, who works at a coffee shop, meets a romance comic artist called Wong Chi-Kwan or Sasa. Being misled into believing that the girl is from a rich family, Don decides to chase her. He would never have thought that someone as calculative as himself would end up falling into a love trap.
Yan at first mistook Wing to be one of those bad guys until one night Yan saw Wing getting beat up by some gangsters. Yan helped Wing, and they became friends, and Yan secretly liked Wing. After a while, Wing introduced Yan to his grandmother and they became great friends. Yan soon finds out that Wing's birthday is almost here, so she wants to celebrate it with him; then he forgot his own birthday and Yan got mad. Wing, after a while, saw how kind and sweet Yan was, and he started liking her too. Yan's parents didn't like Wing; they wanted Yan to get together with a doctor friend, Dr. Ching Yat Long. Yan didn't listen to them and still went out with Wing.
Don saw that Sasa's parents were rich in the newspaper so he pretended to like her. On the other hand, Sasa also pretended to go out with him so that she could get ideas about relationships for her romance comic. They were both oblivious about the other pretending. Sasa did many things to make Don upset because she couldn't think of an ending for her comic. Jessie, Sasa's friend, liked Don a lot and didn't think what Sasa was doing was right. Sasa finally made Don so angry that he thought about breaking up and losing the money that he thought Sasa had. Meanwhile, Sasa couldn't think of an ending to her comic so she needed to break up with Don to know what it was like. They eventually found out they were using each other and split. However, they both realized that during the time they were pretending to go out, they had slowly developed feelings for each other. Don finally found out that Sasa wasn't rich and that it was Jessie that was.
Wing had to go to Japan to look after Yuen Ching since people thought she was dead. She had AIDS and wanted Wing to take care of her because she had liked him for a very long time. Yan was sad when Wing had to leave so she decided to go to Japan a few days later to surprise him. When she got there, she found Ching's diary and inside, Ching wrote that she still had feelings for Wing and it looked like Wing liked her back. Wing was very worried about Ching and Yan started to think that Wing didn't like her anymore. Meanwhile, Yan's parents found out that she was in Japan, which made her dad extremely mad and he went to Japan to get her back. She left without letting Wing know. She needed to leave because she has Li-Faraumenni syndrome, which she got from her mother.
Don decided to date Jessie because she was rich. They started going out and Don got a new job because of her dad. All this time, Don felt sad because he missed Sasa and vice-versa. Eventually Sasa got into school in Japan and left Hong Kong. Don also quit his job and restarted a company with his friends, Dino, Martin and KK. The company was called DDMK. They hired Jessie as an accountant. DDMK soon got a business opportunity from Japan. Coincidentally, the meeting place was in the same city as where Sasa was staying. Jessie became very suspicious, so Don and his friends lied to Jessie and said he was only going there to discuss business. At the last moment, Jessie also came along, because she found Don's phone which proved Don was going to meet Sasa.
Wing finally found out that Yan left because of her father and decided to leave too. But Ching's sickness kept getting worse which made him keep staying in Japan. He finally called Ching's dad to take over so that he can go back to Hong Kong. Yan went to the doctors and found out that she had a cancer tumor in her brain. She found out a while later she has multiple cancers. When Wing came back, she broke up with him because she didn't want him to feel that he had to take care of her, but Wing wouldn't stop asking why. To hide the fact that she has cancer, Yan said that she was angry that Wing spent so much time with Ching and that she now has feelings for Dr. Long. This made Wing leave her alone temporarily.
In Japan, Don tried to spend time with Sasa as much he could when Jessie wasn't around. One night Don and Sasa got drunk and they woke up in Sasa's bed together. Sasa thought that he was in Japan alone so when someone knocked Don and Sasa opened the door together and saw Jessie in the doorway. Jessie was furious and kept on asking why he was with Sasa and Sasa kept on asking Don why he didn't tell her that Jessie was here or why they hadn't broken up yet. Sasa kicked both Jessie and Don out and Don didn't know what to do. He decided try to make things better with Sasa, but she ignored him. He left Japan to find Jessie and explain everything to her. He promised to come back and see Sasa.
Yan had to do an operation to get rid of the tumor in her brain. She refused to do it because she felt that her life no longer had meaning without Wing. In desperation, Yan's father, who disliked Wing from the beginning, begged him to try to convince Yan to do the operation. Wing then persuaded Yan to do the surgery, but only if he promised to never see her again. After the successful operation, Yan went to Wing's apartment to clear things up. She told Wing why she had to break up with him which finally made him understand. They got back together and decided to get married.
Yan knew that she had an incurable disease and that she might die because of it. She wanted Wing to have someone to live for even if she left him, so they decided to have a baby together. the only problem was if they did it would get Li-Fraumeni syndrome from Yan. They consulted Long and he said they could try artificial insemination. A while later, Wing gets promoted to the senior position in his job as an interior designer, and the same day Yan visits his office and announces to everyone that she is pregnant. The couple is overjoyed.
Meanwhile, Don flew back to Hong Kong and broke up with Jessie. He then rushed back to Japan where he confronts Sasa about her being pregnant. Sasa then insisted that she had a new boyfriend, and that the baby was his. Because Don couldn't speak Japanese, and Sasa's 'boyfriend' couldn't speak Chinese, Don couldn't understand when he protested the baby was Don's. Sasa took advantage of this and said that her 'boyfriend' was defending her. Don got really angry at him and they got into a fight. When he saw Sasa acting very concerned about her 'boyfriend', he left angrily. Back at his hotel, he called Martin (who could understand Japanese) and explained the whole story. Martin translated what he said and told him that Sasa's child was Don's.
After Yan was pregnant she suddenly suffered an epilepsy. Long discovered that her brain tumor was back and suggested Yan get an abortion. Yan refused, even though her family begged her to. Wing was deeply touched but also heartbroken. When Yan was seven months pregnant, her brain tumor caused her to not be able to speak. Her family and Wing decided they couldn't wait any longer and Yan had to get a Caesarian operation to get the baby out and remove the tumor.
Meanwhile, Sasa reluctantly admitted the baby was Don's, but she didn't want him to have anything to do with the baby. Don finally persuaded her, just before Sasa wants to give birth on the street.
With both Yan and Sasa about to give birth, Wing and Don coincidentally meet each other in the hospital. When the doctors come out one at a time, they announce that both couples now have a daughter. Everyone is ecstatic.
After Yan gave birth and removed her tumor, Wing fulfilled a promise which was that when Yan gave birth to a healthy baby and removed her tumor they would all go as a family to a beautiful place in Japan. The family continues the tradition faithfully, but after five and a half years, Yan dies from cancer. Wing keeps the tradition going. Meanwhile, Don and Sasa get married.
The series ends on the two little girls' birthday, which is on the same day, like their fathers. Wing and Don once again meet each other on the street and the fathers return to their families.

**The ending of the drama was good and realistic. The music really matched the drama a lot. I cried a lot in this drama because it was so touching. i might not re watch this drama cause i don’t wanna cry like crazy again XD**



Him

3rd day I at Subang Jaya and also first time 3 month without him ,
In this 3 day , I had nothing to do and alone at hostel ,
Even my computer is open movie but I dont know is computer watch me or i watch the movie.

The important thing is you dont get sick anymore ahhh ,
In this 3 month, you must eat alot to gain weight ya ...
You must eat alot alot alot to gain weight and come protect me ya ...






Mis$ u S0 Badly

i just miss you so bad
i miss your voice
i miss your laugh
i miss the way you'd look deep into my eyes and smile
i miss our talks about life and about the future
the way you'd say you missed me
i miss hearing my name from YOUR lips..

Just listen to what I'm saying...

Why is this happening to me?!
Why me?

Why can it be someone else?

Why do i feel guilty at something that I shouldn't be feeling guilty?

Why can I be more like the rest of my friends?

Why if don't exist in this world?

Am I not that lucky enough to be a lot more like my friends?

Am I not good enough to be happy...

Am I ever going to stop hurting people...

Can this ever stop from happening...

Can I NOT cry...

Can this... just stop. Just for a while...

Let me breath...

Let me catch my breath...

See where exactly I can stand, in people's life


I am so lost in the world where people talking, demanding, requesting a lot of stuff...

or was me? asking... demanding, requesting, and talking at the same time... about a lot of things.


pleasee pleasee pleaseeee



I just want to be at a place where I want to be in right now...

Not this... not right now... Not this place.

I don't know what I did wrong that I deserve this amount of pressure around me

Framing me...

pulling me in all different direction...

calling my name....

is this a punishment for loving a lot of people,

me wanting to be friends with everyone

to want a lot of things in life

to be happy?

to be too sad?

to feel want?

need?

seriously what do  you want me to do?

I wish people could hear what I am trying to tell them...

I am not asking for anything...

I just want it to be like... nothing is wrong. Just the little things that can happen, not like now.

nothing less nothing more...

without jealousy, without anger, curiosity, weak, being pressure, regrets, love, hate, hate....



I wish I could be strong enough to deal with everything...

UGHhhhh ~~~

My mo0d swing is all 0ver the plac3
I d0n't kn0w what I want s0metimes 
When I d0, s0mething anything at all just had t0 ruin it f0r me. 
I d0nt kn0w if I am the 0ne wh0 is c0mplaining, 
But I alwAys th0ught t0 my$elf, it c0uld've be3n w0rst. 

I am alwAys trying mY b3st at everything I wAnt 0r planning t0 d0.
I d0n't c0mplain if things d0n't g0 my wAy, 
S0metimes I jUst w0nder, what c0uld've been w0rst or h0w it be better. 
I Am l0st in my oWn mind,
I don't even know what I want anymore

Is it okay to be a little scared inside

People get tired after a while, 

You can't always expect them to be strong at everything 

You can't always run away from how feel

They'll ended up catching up with you that much sooner, 

You wish you could be stronger 

but you're not.

It's not fair to know that you're okay 

when I'm about to fall apart  

It's not fair it's always me who always go to you, 

its not fair 

it's just not...

I look at you 

you looked away 

It's like everything 

what we have 

is about to slip away 

I get tired chasing you 

You can't always expect me to stop you from building this wall from me 

because I'm get tired eventually 

I'm tired of running away 

from how I feel 

I'm tired of running to you 

I don't want to lose you

it scares me 

You're not helping me at all. 



I hate how you make me feel
What had once broken is broken,
It can never be mend nor it can be fixed,
Even if it can scar will never leave...


What had once forgotten is gone,
No regret should incurred,
Even "sorry" has been tell it doesn't matter no more...


What once slip away is miss,
It will never come back nor it can be found,
Even you had tried nothing will make the change...


What is shattered is lost,
It can never be put together again,
Things will never be the same again...


Sometimes apologizing can never bring back what you had once hurt...
Nice word will never save someone heartbroken...
Regret will not make someone forgive your foolishness...




What had done is done...! Nothing to be blame but you!

一直都相信…愛情的美好

我们常对爱人说 I LOVE YOU,里面含着的意思
I-inject 投入
L-loyal 忠诚
O-observant 用心
V- valiant 勇敢
E-enjoyment 喜悦
Y-yes 愿意
O-obligation 责任
U- unison 和谐
我试着让自己忙碌起来
因为这样
我才不会想你

忙碌完后
我又想你了
难道想你是逃避不了的事实?

不知从哪一天开始
我喜欢想你

不知从哪一天开始
想你已成了我的习惯

因为这样
想你
是我每天必须做的事情

喜欢想你习惯想你
 

❤ 一半; 另一半❤

给我的另一半 -- Mr. NG

坚强的感情 要2个人的努力
 听听我的话多一些
想想我的好多一些
对对方交代 负责任
聊聊 以前 现在 未来
多替对方想想 分享
一起面对 解决问题
更要为对方的家人 好好
就算世界末日 也一起过 ^^
(最好没有~~)
**我不要天长地久**
**我不要海枯石烂**
因为都太不真实了~~~~(有谁看过海枯掉 到石头烂掉呢??)

**我要的是 白头偕老**
那就是当我们2个老老满是白头发的时候 还牵着彼此的手 
不离不弃 ^^